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Laurel
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posted 1/18/06 2:43 AM
Alright... so as of late I've been hearing strange things when I get into bed. If I lay there still and quiet, I can hear faint music, and than something of the sound of voice whispering ( like someone left the TV on ) but I can never make out the words. Throughout my child hood events like that would happen, along with seeing things, but it's been years for me. So I freaked out a little ( naturally ) and wandered the hall and such, trying to see if I could hear it elsewhere. I asked my mom, and she reported no humming, telling me to come to bed with her. But I was anxious to hear what was being said and refused, just returning back to bed and hoping to make out the words and music. Out of nowhere, straining to hear, I was suddenly overcome with such a miserable feeling I started to cry. I felt so tired, used, and frustrated. Eventually I got up and started moving furniture around. I told my councelor about it, and along with my paranoia/ constant feeling of invasion, she thinks it's time to call on the help of drugs. She told me what she would tell my pyscatrist ( sp? ) but I asked her not to mention the voices or music, and lied that it wasn't happening anymore. And it doesn't happen that often- usually the bumps in the night of my room keep me moving and backed into my bedroom corner, and I'm never still or settled enough to hear. And while I know this must be common, how do you tell just plain crazy from normal? Am I going nuts, or what? I don't know. I don't want to be crazy, but at the same time I really want to hear what the voices and music have to say.
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